I've been completely unable to explain how I am lately beyond 'fine' and 'doing okay'.
I am having a problem with thinking clearly.
The best way I can think of is to explain it like an ancient Egyptian tomb.
It's full of riches sure, but that bugger is booby trapped.
Every now and again, someone nudges something, someone steps on 'one of those' panels, someone just has to push the button, pull the lever, or poke the big statues...
Then the whole thing floods with sand...
Everything gets buried, thoughts and feelings get frozen in place.
It takes a little while for the brain minions to clear things up. With shovels and spades, trying not to break anything or set the whole thing off again.
Business can resume as soon as possible once enough sand gets cleared, but it's slowed and sluggish, and the clearing up process takes longer too. Sand is being trawled in from outside and the brain minions don't have as much space to keep tidying up.
Eventually the gold will be shiny, the jewels will be glittering, and the traps will be disabled, but in the meantime, be patient with me. I am not at 100% (In honesty I don't feel like I'm anywhere near a lot of the time...)
Thats a really good analogy. I feel like that quite a bit of the time too. Most of the time I am happy but sometimes certain things just really trigger unhappy feelings and memories and it takes a few days to feel back to being me again *hugs*
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