What a cause of annoyance.

I decided last night that I wanted to write an article about the stupid comments people make on the street, following yet another abusive comment made at me whilst going to the shops for food. (I wouldn't usually have gone in the evening, but the circumstances dictated it this time.)

I asked around in a few places to try and get a few more viewpoints on the matter, and ended up getting much more personal comments made attacking me for being too 'sensitive' and wanting to change things, marking it out as an impossible task. It made me upset and angry, much more so than the original comment on the street.

So now I'm being told I'm too sensitive and shouldn't try to change things so that the sort of crap I have to deal with stops being acceptable.

Seems the choice as it's being put to me is to choose between ignoring my feelings and accepting that the world is a shitty place that can't be changed; Having my feelings and trying to do something about it; Having my feelings and accepting the world as unchangeable; Losing my feelings and fighting to change the world anyway.

I have to choose to feel and fight. I can't ignore my feelings because they're not small things, they're big in your face things that I have never been able to control. I can't accept the world as it is either, because it's making life so hard as to be not liveable sometimes.

So I 'fight', because I have to, because it helps me keep living. Meanwhile I'm left asking if I'm really doing the right thing, and if there's another way out of this...