Finally I'm sitting down to write this! I've been kept busy and have been so tired when I have got free that I'm only just getting to write this now.
Where do I start? Friday? Okay then!
Friday was kinda dull, but it got me working on a few practical things. I went looking for work to apply for. I've applied for my first job as Lilith, not that I think I will be called to interview or anything. There is a trust I am working with that is supposed to be helping me back into work, because I'm still off on incapacity, and it's been so long since they called me or anything that they don't know about me at the moment. They had said that they wanted to do a lot more work with me before they considered sending me off to apply for stuff. If I'm lucky maybe I'll get it!
Saturday I went shopping with Isabelle!
Isabelle and I had tea, and my house-mate joined us. We had a lovely day trawling several charity shops. My arms and legs were so tired by the end of it all, from carrying so much by the end of it.
I bought: Some make-up, Three skirts, four tops, a dress, a pair of trousers, and a handbag. No shoes though! I worked out that I've acquired one pair of shoes a week over the last six months... So it's probably a good thing I didn't buy any more! It was a surprisingly cheap lot!
Sunday was a lazy day!
Mostly. I ended up having Sunday supper out at my house-mate's mother's house. I am free to be myself there so I had a nice time. I helped out setting up a web-album for some recent holiday snaps, and ate a healthy amount too.
When I got home I chatted with Emma a little, and a new friend I've made called Terri (I've been exchanging emails with her and her partner, David, for a week or so now). I also for a change caught my brother online.
I have a few friends on MSN, some of which are purely online friends; I've been slowly re-introducing myself to them as Lil and so far it'd been a pretty positive thing.
So my brother is online, and I've been very eager to share myself with him; so the conversation starts and he's pressuring me to just get on with it. He tells me he knows gays and trannies and he really doesn't care. So I just go: “okay then!” link him to my web album and say “This is how I look these days”...
“wow” Oh thank you eloquent one. He takes a little bit of time to process it, but he gets with it and asks questions and tries to understand. He accepts me, which I had imagined from the start, he was my sure thing of the family I think. Next on the list is my mum, who has always been very supportive anyway, but may have more trouble, I suspect over the change of name than the switch from son to daughter. I shall have to wait and see! (and plan! Yes I need to plan!)
So yes, I've had a long weekend. A tiring weekend too; but a good weekend.
That's enough for now though...
Hi Lilith
ReplyDeletei empathise with you about telling your family,for me it was alot easier as i was the only boy with three sisters and a mother.I think though it was no suprise to them,as my mother used to tidy up my "Shiny" and "Trans" magazines when she did my bedroom.I once bought a girls pvc raincoat when i was 15 and hid it under my bed,and then all of a sudden it was hanging in my wardrobe,so don't be suprised if your Mother is not shocked,She probably knows more than you think.
jade x